I woke up happy for the first time on my husband’s birthday in 11 years. I made a kavannah-an intention to focus on sweet memories. I was able to do that. I worked in the morning like I usually do on Sundays for three hours with a sweet young boy who is high functioning on…

It’s been a good day. Yes there were flashbacks of this exact day 11 years ago when Tzemach asked to be brought for the first and only time to the Urgent Care at MSK. The trauma is being worked through, little by little. His liver had been taken over. He would not return home and…

As i sit here writing, hoping that i will be able to move it to the right place, i must remember to breathe. It’s been a good day and I am thankful. It was so good to be in the pool for 40 minutes today after school. I thought the whole time of sweet memories-having…

I love Joy. She is by my feet under the desk as I write. The air conditioning and the loud music are on to help possibly drown out some of the very loud frightening sounds of the fireworks. I wish that all fireworks could be done in open places like designated parks. So with so…

I am ready. It’s going to be good…overall.

This will be a magical mystery kind of journey and exploration filled with stillness and joy and love and tears too.